Not Again.

Envy is one of the 7 deadly sins.

I hate it when I look at other people and scour over the success that they have attained. I should be there.. just like them. Same place. I have similar dreams, so why arent I there yet? I feel stagnant working in this line. Yes, true that I am doing my degree... But it seems like it's forever for me to FINALLY achieve my dreams of teaching in a proper school.

I want to change environment... I NEED to change my environment, or else my brain is just not going to grow. I hate this feeling. This feeling of envy, which will in turn become rage.

I wasnt this competitive before. So why now? And please, I dont want this to happen anymore. This rage. This pain. This war between myself.





:(

Positivity

"You're waiting for a train. You know you hope where this train will take you. But it doesnt matter...." -Inception


The movie was super. So super that I didnt mind watching it twice. Heehee.

Anyways, I'm tired of thinking too much. Why do we women have to have intuition? It drives me crazy. I'm tired of crying also. So as for now, I'm just gonna go with the flow. Whatever happens, I will take it in my stride, I will take a leap of faith.

Dib was right. You gotta love urself before loving anybody else. This should be making us stronger.

ANYWAY. i cant wait to meet my gfs and bfs on the 7th!! Wheeeee!!! i miss u guys so much!




Ok dah.
















Mine, is considered a personal success. :)

Afraid

I cry myself to sleep.

I think about things I dont dare think about.

I'm afraid.

That U will leave.

Walking Away

Dont walk away from me... just because....


I feel like we are apart.


I dont need this.

No more fuckery. Enough is enough.




And babyboy, I love u.

Disappointment

with myself.. for breaking my promise to myself.


with myself.. for not being able to be the best girlfriend.


with myself.. for having a childish attitude.


with myself... for having a low self esteem.


with myself.. for not being able to withstand shit.






What is trust anyway?

What Do I Do?

..... when I am nice to people, but they just don't get it?

.....when I try my best not to stuff my face with food, but I am always feeling hungry?

.....when I act like a normal person, but people look like I'm one helluva alien?

..... when I get sick of being chubby?







:(

Shagged,but HAPPY

I

am

sooooooo

POOPED.



BUT.



I'm


seeing


babyboy

tomorrow!!


YAHOOOO!

Us.

"What kind of a boyfriend makes his girlfriend cry almost every night?"




Me: One who loves his girlfriend very much.




I love u, babyboy. More than anything else on Earth.

Hates

I hate having squabbles. I hate feeling apart. I hate feeling disoriented. I hate feeling ugly. I hate being suicidal.

But then again, nothing's perfect. That's what makes it perfect.

:(

Trust

U dont have that in me.

So all this while...??

On Pills.

Happy pills I mean. Hee. First of all, Happy New Month. It's July y'all. hehehehe!

Had an awesome foursome day with the beautiful ladies. Just the 4 of us, nobody else. hehehe... Long John Silvers, Starbucks and Al Majlis witnessed our laughs and love...

Thank you for being part of my life. Please dont ever walk away. I dont need anymore walking out on me. I love u ladies. MOre than Lady Gaga. :D

Wheed.

PS: I'm back to my roots..hip hop. i LOVE Eminem!!




... but not more than how much I love u, syg. hehehe..

AAAAARRRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!