Emotional

Isnt that the whole point of this blog? To be emotional?

I'm crying for no apparent reason.

Sad Malay love songs are tearing my heart up into pieces...




Damn it Wheed..the hell happened to ya?

Wary

I'm so afraid.


Since that incident, it has not been the same.

I know it will take time.

But still.


:(

Instinct

No wonder.


My female instinct was right.


F**K CHEAPOS.

Maturity.

Thank you to everybody.

A year wiser.

=)

Muy Feliz

Last night was one of the most beautiful nights with you love.


I could never ask for anything more.


Maybe.. jes lots of loving. :)

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I cant wait to see my LADIES on SUNDAY!! yay yay jalan raya!! WOOHOO!!

and oh, somebody's turning a year older. sheeesh.

Down

When the emotional rollercoaster is going too fast. Way too fast.


Since when do I know the feeling of jealousy? Since when did I learn being overprotective?

Today, wasnt a good day.

I dont need another shitty assed day like this. Please.




Please.

-___-"

Interpret.


I really cannot take this.


PMS? Maybe.

Salam Syawal

This post, is going to be in Malay, so pardon me.

Kehadapan sabahat-sahabatku,

Sempena Syawal yang akan datang esok, aku menyusun 10 jari tangan dan kaki memohon ampun dan maaf... Sekiranya selama persahabatan kita pada tahun 2010 ini telah membawa kekecilan hati kepada kalian; angkara mulut aku yang laser, kelakuan aku yang gedik atau irrits.

Aku bersyukur atas kehadiran kalian semua dalam hidup aku. Terima kasih kerana menerima aku seadanya. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin, Jasmani & Rohani. :) Aku sayang kalian, lebih dari aku sayangkan hidup aku. :)

Dan kepada kekasihku,

nanti I call you la ucapkan! LOL! :)

The Big Q

I didnt think he would actually think about it.


The big plan. The big question.


Dear Allah, please help me make the right decision.



:/

Ready?

I dont know... I'm uncertain....


Am I really ready for something that big? Because.... I have been having notions of doing something big... I'm scared sometimes.. to commit.. but at the same time, I believe I'm ready mentally... financially, definitely not yet. hmmm...

This year has been great for me. Despite the downs and the shitholes I've been in and out of, it's jes been awesome. When 2009 was all f***ed up, 2010 has been awesome. I'm thankful for every single person and thing He has blessed me with. Most times I tend to lose strength. But i try to get back up on my feet.

You see, my problem isnt about losing strength. It's about GETTING BACK UP. it's about pulling myself out of that shithole. People can throw me ropes and sticks and give me motivation, but in the end, it's all up to me whether I want to take them or not. And i guess the worst shithole was last 2 months i think. that was the WORST. i was zombiefied. ugh.

But now, I do believe, I do have faith, I do have hope (though not so much)... It's all in a matter of time... So far, it has been good. Being loved, loving... :)

Like they say, kalau dah jodoh tak kan ke mana.. and mama keeps telling me, "korang asek gadoh je.. tu makna nnti kawen tau.." Ah. Mama doakan je. Saya terima. :)

He told me isnt perfect... nobody is.. everybody was born with flaws. That's the beauty of human beings. And babyboy, you may not be perfect, but to me, you're everything i've always wanted... :)

SentiMENTAL

This week, I have been strangely hyper at one point, and at a down low at another point. I would be smiling and laughing for a while, then all of a sudden my mood would jes drop to minus zero, and at that moment, EVERYTHING would seem wrong.



I guess I'm jes being sentiMENTAL. hahahaha...



Anyways, the day was spent with Saz.. thanks for accompanying me to the library... After that, we went gallivating in town.. i got myself a cheapo ring and a bling2 hairband for Raya.. saz got herself a ring and 3 bangles. hahahah..



I have 2 assignments due back to back in 2 weeks. isnt it craaaazzzyyy?? hahahah..





Ok. now for the sicko part. I'm in love. madly in love with my prince... i couldnt ask for anything more!!!!! :D







"Love doesnt make the world go round. It makes the ride worthwhile."- Franklin P. Jones.

SEPTEMBER!

FIRST! HAPPY NEW MONTH MONSTAAAASSS!! =D It's September,bloody hell! how time goes and keeps on going.. like it would never ever stop! pish!

Woots! September... 3 more months, and it'd be December already.. Anyways, Ramadhan has come almost to the end.. we are at the 23rd day already... Masya Allah.. seriously, I really do feel like it's going super fast. Would there ever be a day where time would actually stop? Hmm..

Anyways, the days have been mad mad mad. I dont know, but I tend to snap easily these days.. it's been loco.. work! i cant take it.. haiz...

I really need a break. Somewhere far away where I wont think of work and school and relationship issues. AAAAAHHHH!!

OH YEAH! this is my 100th post! AWESOME!






I heart you, like i always do. :)


and BABES!! I MISS YOU ALLS!!!