Stop Fussing Over It.

So he won. Sezairi Sezali.. our 3rd Singapore Idol. So he's a MALE.. and he's Malay. so what??

C'mon you guys.. You wanna complain that another malay male has won the competition.. that Sylvia shld have actually garnered the title. But, did Sylvia's fans vote enuf? I dont think so. I dont even wanna go on the racial issues here.

Anyways, when i watched the competition that night, i saw 2 differences betwn Sezairi and Sylvia. i saw over confidence in one, and humbleness and sincerity in the other. u decide where these go between them 2.

And honestly speaking, i support Sezairi NOT because he's Malay, NOT because he's a guy and NOT because he's cute and hot and whatever. i supported him because he's a very talented musician and singer. he wldnt be in a band if he couldnt sing. he wldnt be in a band if he couldnt play music. And that night, he went all out, but still maintained his what Florence called, cool cat persona.

So ppl, get over the fact that Sezairi Sezali is our Singapore Idol. nothing will change that. stop fussing over this matter. if u wanted Sylvia to win, u wld have voted for her. enuf said. so there. my 2 cents worth. jes stop being childish, and get over the fact!

And next season, if we dont want to see a Malay Male make it to the final round, dont let malay males get thru the top 12. simple aint it? but pls remember.. Singapore Idol is MEANT for TALENT and NOT GOOD LOOKS. if it was for good looking ppl, they shldn jes have Singapore Model the next time round.

Pembohongan

Kadang-kadang
Pembohongan itu
Seperti solekan tebal
Di wajah kita

Kadang-kadang
Pembohongan itu
Menyembunyikan
Perasaan kita yang sebenarnya

Jadi
Kadang-kadang
Pembohongan itu
Baik pada diri kita

Kerana pembohongan itu
Mencantikkan yang tidak.

Wheed.
28 Dec 09




*Congratulations to Sezairi Sezali for being the 3rd Singapore Idol... You make us proud, boy!*

Let Go

I try and try
I still cant fight
Why?

I shovel my brain
To make it hollow
But all I get is a feeling
Called sorrow

I want to let go
I really do
But why oh why
Cant I do so?

Wishes.

1) Merry Xmas to those who celebrate it. and a Merry New Yr too.

2) a Nikon DSLR. pls.

3) Adidas highs. plsplspls.

running thru my pictures, i realised that i have changed so much over the years. i am no more that angry girl in high school/poly. what made me change? and whr, in heaven did all this bloody confidence come from?

i miss you. so much. whr in the madaf.ing world are you anyways? and why, cant i let u go?

Love

A disease that eats you from inside.
A form of emotional blackmail.
Turns you blind. Really blind.
It hurts a lot. A whole lot.



And i dont get it. You wanna cover urself up. telling ppl you're oh-so-damned-decent. But smother urselves all over. How embarassing. U are an embarassment to your own race, and especially to ur religion.

Damn u.

Desires.

She was skinny and frail
Stashed herself in the corner


Then she grew up
A tad too slow

But she became one
With desires so strong


They destroyed her heart & soul.

Give me strength to eradicate the pain of having this emptiness in my heart. To drive a stake through my chest, letting the blood, the black blood, flow out of my veins. So it creates a river so dark that no creature can swim in it. Then my heart, I am sure, will be clean of all its suffering.

I have had enough of suffering this whole month.

Please....give me something to smile about.

Please, I am on my knees.

it has been a bad month so far... the past couple of weeks of December has been so fucked up.

i ask for miracles, something to smile about.. but it nvr happened.

why?



Let this chill blanket me
Freezing my heart
Making it cold
Making me cruel

Damn.

F*** you and your crap, you little pieces of f.ing f***.


Why do I shed tears
Under the sun?

Why do I need solace
In your voice?

When all I have right now
Is myself
To be strong for.

I am nobody without myself.
Please God.
Give me strength.

F.Ing Sucks

Crazy & messed up.

Dont see life's purpose anymore.