Stupidity.

The past 2 nights have been a hell ride.


Last night, I found out something which made me numb. I didnt know what or how to feel. I decided to take matters up another step. but that one phone call prolly rescued me. It's weird now.. maybe it will take time. the pain that was caused is still here. but i know it will ease. i apologise to those whom i've wronged emotionally. but still, Death is inevitable.

anyways... maybe this is a lesson, a test from God to see how strong I am, to see how strong we are to face it. i blame u, i blame her. i blame myself. i blame myself for not being caring enuf. i blame u for having put urself in a vulnerable situation. i blame her for being an opportunist in a negative way. i dont know what really happened, let God see it in His eyes. i dont want to know. All i want is to put this behind us. To err is human as they say. And to forgive is prolly one of the greatest strengths a human has. I have never loved someone so much.

I love u babyboy.


And to my friends, you know who you are. I'm sorry for making u cry, sorry for making u worry. i love u a lot. more than i love myself.





I just wanna be loved. Nothing more.